Shae its very normal to mourn for someone that is so great. You know that there is no doubt in her mind that she loved you unconditionally and knew you did the same. Everyone gets mad, everyone gets mad. Its human nature. And then forgive, forget and love. You are not a horrible person, you are a normal person. sorry. But who am I really to say anything-I have never gone through what your going through. All I know is from what I have seen. It will get better over time-and you will have memories about a wonderful women's life you were able to be a part of. You will remember her forever...try to remember the good stuff; )

Thank you...that did help. I don't know how to deal in these situations either...so any reassurance helps, heh.

Shae--Just reading this is making me cry.I haven't cried since the funeral..I love you Shaena